Writing is both my greatest need, my stress reliever & the thing that gives me life but it also is sometimes the hardest thing in the world for me to do.
There are two reasons for this!
One is the lack of time. If I sat down and started writing everytime something was on my heart, I would never do ANYTHING else. But I have chosen to be a wife and mother and those two things are more important to me than anything.
The other reason is that some things that I know I need to talk about are just SO hard to say! But those things that are difficult writing about are the things I need to get out the most! Maybe they will help someone else. But mostly I think getting them on paper will help heal me.
For right now I am very broken.
I've experienced some things this summer that have changed who I am FOREVER.
I feel like the world is speeding by me and there is so much that needs done and lots to see to but I am still standing still in shock.
I don't want to believe it. I don't want to move on. I'm not ready. I still hurt SO desperately!!!
I'm still so unsure if I'm really ready to talk about it all!
So this is the reason its been so long since a post has come through!
~Rachel~
