MY SEASON NOW



            Being confident of this, that He who began a good work
                        in you will carry it on to completion until
                                       the day of Christ Jesus
                                                Philippians 1:6

 

 

Stella and I decided to each write on the season we are in RIGHT now! Not where we’ve been or where we desire to be in the future but the here and now! This question scared me a little because I knew it would mean being VERY honest with myself. I have had to ask myself questions like “am I where I ‘thought’ I’d be at this point in my life?” and “am I where I ‘want’ to be right now?”. Also I needed to ask myself "am I where God wants me to be!"

 

Honestly at first I wanted to say NO to all of those questions. Why? Because what instantly came to mind are all the things that aren’t the way I ‘think’ they should be. Some things aren’t the way I ‘want’ them to be. But then I was reminded that we are supposed to learn contentment (which God is convicting me of like He has before). Truth be told many of the things that are not the way I ‘think’ and ‘want’ them to be may not be the way God KNOWS they should be! Then there are other things that are just in the process of getting to where they should be and those things take time and patience (which I am not great at).

 

So after a little bit of prayer and confession I thought about those above questions again. Am I where I want to be, am I where God wants me to be and the answer is whole heartily, YES! Yes, this is what I prayed for as a young teenage girl! I prayed that God would allow me to be the wife, lover, and helpmate to a man who loves God with all his heart, who works hard to take care of those he loves and who gives love generously! - and that is exactly what I have in my James! Yes, again because God granted me what I thought I may never be able to have, children! Eight wonderful children! Two step daughters who are daily teaching me about God’s love even when they don’t know it! Four children that God has granted me the chance to hold, to love and to cherish; two handsome young men and two beautiful daughters! Then there are my two heavenly babes, sleeping sweetly in the arms of Jesus.

  

So my season now, is just right here where I am me, the lady God created & gifted me to be! I am Rachel Lynn Taylor a daughter who cherishes he father and her dear step-mother and daily mourns the loss of her mother, yet rejoices that Heaven is her home. I am the oldest sister to four younger siblings, whom I love, stress over, pray blessings on, and even cry tears for. I am wife to the man God designed just for me! Only He knew our two very different lives would match up SO well! I am mother, nurturer, life giver and guide to the special children God has so greatly blessed me with. I am a second generation Home School mom that is moment by moment taking on the task of teaching, discipline, leading and constantly praying over her children believing God will get deep into their souls and spirits. I am friend and hopefully a light guiding others to Jesus. I am lady who is going after some dreams and goals God has put deep inside of her, goals that will allow me to show my creativity, do things I enjoy and help our family prosper. I am a woman who desperately and passionately needs God’s direction and help in every part of her life. But most of all I am a daughter of the most high God, servant of His, hoping that all I do will glorify Him.

 

           Today I am just me, a girl who is SO happy that God is NOT finished with me YET!

 

 

                             Some silly faces at my brothers wedding. This was taken just weeks
                                                after we welcomed Juliana into our family